1/15/23 --- I have a dream...

 I forgot to write this last night. Totally got caught up in the nonsense that has been my Facebook ad experience (it's a whole thing, but it's fixed now) and watching a bunch of gardening videos.

Yesterday was one of those days where I didn't feel "depressed" but was feeling rather joyless for a better part of the day. I have no idea why it happened either. The boys were great, it was a beautiful day, and my books were selling... I just felt less than great for no reason. Weirdly, putting myself in the kitchen and baking, then making a big dinner for us all really turned me around. I really love cooking and it always helps me perk up when I'm feeling less than perfect.

Anyway, onto the dream. So, Alpha's Rejection came out and for its first day, it did pretty well. I've been really excited about this book and so last night it infiltrated my dreams.

I dreamed that I woke up the following day with 745,000 ratings on my book and that it had nearly a 5-star average. When I opened my sales dashboard I saw tens of thousands of dollars sitting there and for a moment, I was just completely overwhelmed. Hyperventilating, crying, the whole nine yards. At last, I'd made it as an author and I could go full-time. It felt so good to have my work praised and have it able to support me as well. It's been a long time since I had a dream like that, but it definitely felt good. That's what I want to keep working towards, the goal I've had since the moment I began to think up stories so many years ago. I wish I wouldn't have waited so long to actually start writing them down.

Here's hoping I can go as far as this dream and beyond :)